Age 3: I watched people get pass away,
Age 3: Abusive babysitters cambodian genocide, and abusive mom
Age 3: Mom and dad divorced
Age 7: Adopted by a christian family
Age 11: Modesto with biological family —
Age 13: Mom cut off
Age 13: Learned to survive with sister that is older
- Did not speak English till later. Age 7
- Survived poverty and use to dissociate from horrible situations
- Became advance and tested proficient my sister would hold candles for teach me algebra at Age 8, explains Pyrokinesis
- Meditate and dissociate using fire
- For English – she would make me reread words, and I began to read
- Advance Courses in Elementary—
- Age 11-13: aunt cheated on her husband – and my sister and moved out – she dropped her condom
- Age 15: Vngel Aalesquez – rejected Sophie Gonk and spread rumors about me
- Age 13-16: Bullied badly to the point I was going to drop out, and then, my sister made me finish high school and get a degree
- High school, ROP, and work
- MJC classes in highschool
- 10-year bad relationship
- Age 19: – Waitress/ Victoria Secret – moved to NC – I was not ready for industry
- Age 21: forced to have L, to keep relationship, had to have it natural
- Bought house
- Age 22: 2 degrees
- Age 24: s/o kicked out of army – for beating – general under honorable
- Sdr and damn near fired, super bad at sales
- Age 25: Got out of relationship
- Became an account manager
- Met the worst person in clt became my stalker
25- Moved from charlotte
26 – Bay Area
- Accidentally became an import model
- Became a bottle girl at arena – trained by men
- Photo went viral
- Got published as the first asian low rider at four months
- Spocom – official model
- Music videos
- Territory became San jose
- 386 – Vietnamese
- Biggest bottle girl 1015 sf
- Became an event curator and trained by men in the industry
- Corporate with Arrow the largest electronics over 900 suppliers
- Royal fitment
- Sponsored by car brands
27
Future Vixen Shoot
Heart attack
Stalked – had to leave everything –
Money lost
Isolated from family and friends
Smear campaign
Rico case investigation
Los Angeles
Homeless
No car
Indictment
NO Family
Left in a relationship with so called mentor the guy who was supposed to mentor me
Suicide – attempt
Saved by Fuz
Worked in Ktown
Banned from ktown
Brought back from reputation at 26 – saved by the bay and ktown
Brought back as a boss
I couldn’t work for anyone but myself because I could not pass a background
Started Onlyfans
Fuz – taught me to start a massage business – make enough money to move out
Move with out with my coworker from ktown (my bestfriend, now) 2 months
Miami, Hawaii, Vegas – Heiniken model, Spocom SF, The Cure Company (Nipsy hussels Company)
New Friends – ritz carlton – spoiled life –
First EDC – reunite with family
Pyrokinesis – did my first shot – breaking topics from cia declassified documents
OFTV first video launched
“I was in a constant battle with my mind, and I learned that I would never want anyone to experience what I have endured. This includes rape, domestic violence, emotional manipulation, and starvation. Part of healing is acknowledging that these events have occurred in my life.
For those who don’t know, I was in a long-term relationship for nearly a decade. I devoted my life to someone who never cherished my presence. I take accountability for my reaction to being cheated on and abused. I became acclimated to being screamed at and having items thrown around while I ran and locked myself in the bathroom, scared to death. I’ve even been choked over posting a photo in a bikini. I tolerated being forced to face problems on my own. There were factors I couldn’t control, and I actually lost my friends and family for one person. I even lost myself.
Mind you, my past is my past. One thing I’ve learned to not play victim to my abuse but acknowledge that it has occurred but to heal from it. Learning that trauma that is inflicted on us is not our fault, but it is our responsibility to heal. I am cordial with everyone from my past, but this is my story. I am able to voice it. I am far from perfect and I am working on it.
In that situation, I had to learn to fend for myself, become strategic, and understand that I only had myself. My mentality became that no one would save me. I always thought steps ahead because I was walking on eggshells. I learned to journal everything and document, keeping an emergency bag with personal information, extra batteries, and money just in case I had to run away. Yet, I was always too scared to make the wrong move.
Luckily, I was able to obtain my degrees and secure a great-paying career. However, I live in my head. I don’t allow anyone close to me anymore, and I’m unsure if I am capable of being loved by anyone after those traumatic incidents. I don’t allow men close to me. It only took one person to ruin everything for me. I used to be so shy, broken, and timid. I would have mental breakdowns every day. It felt as if the current in the water was hitting me head-on while I was trying to swim. Eventually, I got so tired that I attempted to delete myself. My last significant other did everything but love me in order to keep me. It was threats and destruction. My friends and family witnessed everything I endured, the nights that I cried, and now… my body will not allow me to shed actual tears, maybe every two years or so.
I always knew that I would never be ready to be a parent, and I was always upfront about my past and trauma. I was so young, naive, and trapped. I was not in the right mental state to hold up anything for myself, let alone anyone else. I knew that giving a child up for adoption would’ve hurt, but I also knew that I wouldn’t want to bring a child into this world to witness their parent being abused. I knew I wasn’t ready after my trauma from relationship, even my past and I decided to heal myself before bleeding on others. I wouldn’t have inflicted more pain on everyone else after that. I am not going to go into more details upon this topic, but it is out there. Contracts have been signed, and you’ll begin to learn that I try my best for everything that I do. I give it more than 120% so, when I feel like I’ve failed. It takes a huge toll. I know that everyone around me is safe. It’s a daily internal battle that I have. I promise one day I will make it up. Guilt constantly eats me up, and only a few people who know me personally know these things. Maybe whoever is reading this will gain a bit of perspective.
I realized why I am still alive today, and maybe it’s because my story will help someone one day. My purpose here is to help others. Yet, I’m still in a fog amidst everything. If I didn’t have my grandparents or sister, I don’t think I would have the foundation to keep going. I have always pushed myself to extraordinary levels. I find that adversity has placed me on different pedestals compared to normal people. I’ve always had to fight and work hard. When you’re used to constant chaos and pressure, you learn to thrive in madness and insanity. This is probably the first time in my life that I’ve felt at peace, but my thoughts consume my sanity.
Steps I’ve taken to heal include journaling, meditation, praying, hiking, exercising, and working. I work nearly eighteen hours on more than half of my week. I am constantly thinking of the next thing, trying to understand everything. I am not writing this for anyone to feel bad for me because I don’t feel bad for myself. I find that everything that has happened to me was my fault, even if there were occurrences I couldn’t control. The only thing I can worry about are things I can control. I am only writing this because I know that there’s someone out there who could be going through the same thing, but the difference is that I made it out, and yet I am filled with guilt but I have learned to cope.”
What I do?
1) Embrace Your Journey 2) Healing from Within 3) Build Resilience 4) Converting Trauma into Empowerment 5) Cultivating Self-Love and Self-Worth 6) Setting and achieving goals
Healing is A Journey
Life has a way of testing us, and for those who have experienced domestic violence, childhood trauma, or other forms of adversity, the journey can be particularly challenging. I am here to remind you that your past does not define you.
Healing from deep wounds requires a holistic approach that encompasses the mind, body, and spirit. Through personalized coaching sessions, we will explore various healing modalities, including therapy, mindfulness practices, self-care techniques, and inner child work. Together, we will create a safe space for you to process your emotions, release limiting beliefs, and cultivate self-compassion.
Resilience is the ability to bounce back from adversity and thrive despite challenging circumstances. I will guide you in developing resilience strategies tailored to your unique experiences. We will work on building emotional strength, setting healthy boundaries, and developing coping mechanisms that empower you to navigate life’s ups and downs with grace and resilience.
Your past does not have to define your future. Together, we will explore how to transform your traumatic experiences into sources of empowerment. By reframing your mindset, identifying your strengths, and embracing your resilience, you will discover the power within you to create a life filled with purpose, joy, and fulfillment.
Surviving trauma can often leave us feeling unworthy or lacking in self-love. I am here to remind you that you are deserving of love, happiness, and success. Through personalized coaching, we will work on cultivating self-love, boosting self-esteem, and nurturing a positive self-image.
Motivation is key to overcoming obstacles and achieving personal growth. Together, we will set realistic and empowering goals that align with your values and aspirations. I will provide you with the tools, accountability, and support needed to take consistent action towards your goals, ensuring that you stay on track and celebrate your progress along the way.
No matter what challenges you have faced, remember that you are not alone. As your life coach, or friend. I am here to walk alongside you on your journey of healing, growth, and transformation. Together, we will navigate the complexities of your past, embrace your present, and create a future filled with resilience, empowerment, and joy. It’s time to reclaim your power and live a life that exceeds your wildest dreams. Well, what are you waiting for? Let’s start your journey together!
