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My younger self looking at 16 would be very proud of myself. Especially, withstanding my past. I ended up becoming a boss, with a resilient mentality. When we’re young we’ve all dreamt of a hero. Other than my older sister that raised me, I became my own hero. I’ve always wanted to be a woman in Corporate America, model and successful. Not only that, I became strong, independent, confident, and strategic. Btw, I’m typing this while high, but I will be working again in like thirty minutes. However, yeah. I am proud of myself. I am not where I want to be at 26, but given the cards that I’ve dealt with. It’s pretty alright. I want even more. I’ve always chased for more.
Advice I would give my younger self:
1) Do not date long term in high school, and don’t get attached to boys. They are phases. If he’s cheated on you before he will do it again. Men in their teens will not treat you well, and men older than you are creeps, until you hit 21. Date more and experiment more!! SHORT TERM! I would’ve broken so many hearts for fun! Literally shits and giggles, but no. I am a total freaking cupcake and falls in love with the idea of love. Except at my age, I can’t commit to anything but success.
2) Be confident in yourself. Sometimes people feel as if they have to dim the light of others to shine. I was bullied so bad in high school for having “fake boobs” or if other girls wanted to date my bf atm. The most promiscuous girls would accuse me of sleeping around. I would’ve told myself to not get your feelings hurt so easily. See, I used to be a sweetheart. People pleaser, I was overly nice, weird and a people pleaser. People began to take my kindness for a weakness. I was bullied so bad. I nearly dropped out of high school because of it. My sister would watch me breakdown every night before I went to bed. Good thing that I didn’t drop out. I can easily make over their salary in a commission check now. That’s just me being honest about how well I’ve honed my skill. It turned me into a tough bitch for sure, an intelligent one at it too. The biggest part to add on. A RESPECTABLE ONE.
3) Take advantage of your looks. Ideally, if I could go back to being 18. I would have a ton of sugar daddies. At least before I cultivated this mentality of being a high valued woman. I’ve always believed in being a high value woman since I was young. It’s been instilled in me. If I were do to do it again. I would take as many chances. Take as many photos while young because you’re never going to get this beauty back.
4) Go for nursing. I always wanted to go for healthcare lmao! I did the nursing program when I was in high school and then early in college. Then, I realized that I don’t like people lmao! I was like, I’m gonna go into investment banking and be Corporate! I was super excited when I was young to be in suits, dressed and turtle necks (Steve Jobs 😂) don’t make fun of me lolol. I’m known for turtle necks and tight pants lmao
5) Active Duty right out of high school. Like, once you walk off the stage you’re off! Not a year wasting time, just off!
6) Start a skincare routine young. I literally thought I was gonna look young forever.
7) Workout harder for gains. Don’t just feel bad for yourself after being cheated a million of times? Either build some ass or leave him! What’s wrong with you bitch? 😂
8) Invest money young. Lmao.. I bet those designer bags, hair, heels and clothes aren’t worth it now 😏 all it got you was pretty and played like a violin lmao
9) Learn a skill young. I started coding when I was young and then gave up. I would have forced myself to continue coding. Or something other than makeup.
10) Work hard young so you could chill when you’re in your late 20s, because your life decisions now will impact your decisions in the future.
I’m gonna leave my younger self a letter:
Note to Bunny (child me):
You are loved, and blessed. Yes, you’re different and you weren’t dealt the best cards in life but remember… it just means that you’re going to learn skills and a hell of a work ethic that others won’t have. I am truly proud of you. You really deserve the world, and you can accomplish anything. Everything tough just push through it. You are so strong! Your traumas could’ve defeated you, but you didn’t let it! Please, don’t turn cold, don’t cut, & don’t starve yourself. It’s okay to cry, don’t hold back your emotions and take it like a pill. It’s okay, to take a break. No more bottling up emotions, okay?! It’s okay to feel alone, just know your sister has you. She’s still alive. You will be the reason why your family will never have to work again. You’re the generational breaker. You will die trying if anything. Please be smart, wise, and don’t become desensitized … at least not too much. I understand that you’ve always fought your entire life. Ever since the age of three, you never had it easy. Please don’t forget that you’re not meant to hurt people. You’re meant to heal, and help make the world a better place. People feel comfortable around you because you make them feel safe since you understand pain. You’re unique. You showed people how it is to feel love, when you’ve never felt it yourself. I love you so much little bunny. So proud of you little bun bun. You’ve come such a long way. *(hug)* *(wipes tears off of younger self)*
It’s gonna be okay. Keep swimming ♥️
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